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Laura (Mendonca) Bratcher | @
I was adopted when i was very young i believe i was a infant when i
was adopted.I was bounced from foster home to foster home until i ended
up at George & Jaunite Mendonca. I been told i'm Osage Native American
by my adopted mother maybe it's true, i have alot of features to show
the Hertiage. When i was 9yrs old my adopted mom told me i was adopted.
Then when i turn 18 yrs old i wanted to find my Bparents but adopted
mom blew up. I was born March 13, 1970 at Deerborn Community Hospital
but the hospital is no longer. My adopted parents refuse to help me
open my adoption files that are sealed in Sacramento Ca. I have no Knowlegde
of my back ground but would like to pass it to my two wonderfull kids.
No matter what i try nothing works . Jaunita says the files can't be
opened and the only way for them to be opened is if i was dead and if
the kids wanted to check into my hertiage. But i know there has to be
a way to poen them but don't know where to go. I've tryed Legal Aid
and Lawyers nothing to aval. I need to close this chapter in my life
that has been opened far to long. Anyone with any information please
e-mail me @ firstname.lastname@example.org or email@example.com - 23
November 2004 - United States
I think this site puts out a much needed message. I think your message
needs to be more mainstream, so when somebody is doing a search engine
on adoption, your site will come up. I have been on both sides. I was
very pressured to adopt my baby out. I even handed her over to an agency,
didn't sign any legal papers. But a social worker told me she was on
the way to my house to drive me to court to sign surrender papers. I
said I wanted her back. She said that wasn't possible and called child
protective services. I wasn't scared because I knew I did nothing wrong-I
didn't abuse or neglect my baby or use drugs. I said do what you want
but I'm not signing those papers. An investigator came out and said
I could have her. But how many others would automatically be scared
of child protective services and just consent to the adoption thinking
it's better than foster care. Then years later I went through three
years of infertility-my tubes are open and I was in my 20's,but I do
agree with your website a lot of it is STD's causing scarring and people
just plain waiting too long to get pregnant. Infertility is very painful
and very devastating, but I never once considered taking another woman's
baby. I do think it's a woman's right to pursue any medical treatments
in order to get pregnant no matter how aggressive if she chooses-if
she uses her eggs and her partners sperm. - 15 November 2004
Ann Pekuri | @
My daughter found me ten years ago, when she turned twenty-four. Just
after her birth and before relinquishment,I held her and fed her and
told her my story at the Florence Crittendon Home in Lakewood, Colorado
in October of 1969. I suffered terribly at the loss and am healing,
She is an amazing person, who was/is well-loved. Her adoptive mother
reminded her, appropriately for a child, that there was 'another mother
thinking of her and sending her love'--keeping my place alive and respected.
I am so grateful.
I am writing my story and as I do so, digging deeper and deeper into
those closeted memories, I think more and more of the friendships I
made and want to make contact with these women, to see how they are
I have three more daughters. They were escorted down the aisle as my
eldest's bridesmaids. I was escorted down the aisle as her 'other mother'.
My entire family was there; mother, father, brothers and their wives
and children. After all the secrecy and shame, I have been given the
opportunity to celebrate her birth and life.
Do not lose hope.
If anyone knows how I may search for my friends, any suggestions and
assistance will be appreciated. My best to each of you in your search
and healing. - 14 November 2004 - Eastsound, Washington
Ginger E. Bush | @
I am an adopted 51 year old woman (birth record shows birthdate as 7/15/53
who does not know her birth parents and little about her heritage.
I always wonder about why I was put up for adoption and I recognize
that I may never know. But it helps to see a site such as this and realize
I was not the only person affected. Great site, keep up the good work.
- 10 November 2004 - North Carolina USA
Alex | @ | url
Nice site. Keep it up! - 10 November 2004 - USA
robin | @
you say that i should 'keep my baby' and that 'adoption is in the best
interest of the adoption parents' NOT IN MY CASE!!!!!!! I am 25 with
four children between the ages of 1 - 11, I live off of the $600.00
i get from the government, as i am medically unable to work; I am also
4 months pregnant. My baby's father liquered himsellf up one nite before
i even found out and then drove himself into a street lite. He was killed
instantly. How can i provide food, clothing, and shelter for five children
on that kind of salary? If I were to try, social services would get
involved, and I would lose the ones I have!! before you go telling the
world that adoption isnt right, THINK!! maybe it is the only choice
they have!! Giving up this baby is going to be hard, but it is something
i chose to do because I love my baby, and I want whats best for this
baby. - 08 November 2004 - canada
Webmistress comments: - Dear Robin, in 1948 the government
of Canada promised all its citizens adequate social assistance that
would enable them to keep their families together. Withholding assistance
that would enable your baby to stay with your VIOLATES the human rights
of BOTH of you!
If you WANT to keep your baby, there is help. Go to http://groups.msn.com/MostLovingOption
and there are people here who can help you. Look at http://www.originscanada.org/mothers_bill_of_rights.html
at your rights. And look at Article 25 of the Universal Declaration
of Human Rights. Adoption will hurt your baby, AND will hurt your baby's
siblings who will suffer grief and loss as well.
Kay Stokes | @ |
IM looking for my son who was taken at birth,i was 14 years old at the
time so the DR. and my mother decided i was to young to care for him.
the dr. came inn my room and wanted me to sign a paper to have my son
cliped,i kept asking to see my son and they would tell me later he was
sleeping or they were giving him a bath.until a nurse told me he was
up for adoption.they were crule that was the worst thing they could
have done to me!he was born 8-20-1963 in Vincennes Indiana at the Good
Samaritan Hospital he weight 7lbs.1oz. and was 21in. long and he was
born at 5:38am. the dr. was Chattin my name at his birth was Kathleen
Ellen Bowman and my mothers name was Virgina Cook please help me im
at my wits end!!!!!!!! - 05 November 2004 - US
Sonya Oldham | @
Thank you for such a brilliant site, i have copied your articles on
loss for our Irish natural mothers site. - 05 November 2004 -
Desiree Carranza | @
Hello,First of all I want to start off by saying 'Thank God' I have
found this web site.I have been fighting for my children for two years
now.The courts have just terminated my rights to my four children.In
the begining the social worker told me I had nothing to worry about
that I would get my children back.I was given a thing called a case
plan in wich I had to do all that was in this packet and of course I
did it all and more.At this point they still were not satisfied.I began
starting to visit my children and noticed my 3 year old had severe peeling
on the palms of his hands that looked like peeling from burns,I then
braught it to the social workers attention she said 'I'll look into
it.One week later they stoped me from seeing him because the foster
parent claimed he was inflicting bodily injuries to him self for visiting
me.Thats were it began the more I spoke up about the wrong they were
doing to my children and myself the more lies they stated to tell social
workers,supervisors,and FOSTER PARENTS all of them.The day they terminated
my rights the social worker had the nerve to tell me how I was felling
she said exactly theese words 'You must feel like you've been drug through
a dry desert and kicked in the gut.'I told her you have treated me like
a hungry rabbit and have been dangling a carrot in the front of me each
time I got closer you pulled back.As of this moment I have still not
lost hope I refuse to let this be the end I Will not let them get away
with there corruption.I have been advised from lawyers,social workers,counslers,DV
advocates to seek publicity.It's not only A scorned mothers view on
this it's others as well.This is why Iam asking for help 'Please'If
any body can help me or just some advise please do so.As for all you
mothers who have lost your children 'Stand Tall and Refuse To Fall!!!
- 27 October 2004 - Gilroy,Ca October 27,2004
Barry Roberts | @
I was born in Richmond Virginia 1951 in the Children's Home. My real
name is Steven Keith Sealy please let me know more about my birth mother
firstname.lastname@example.org - 27 October
2004 - Hampton
tara marie (chase) ortuno | @
i am 32yrs old now. i gave up my daughter in 1998 at glens falls hospital
in new york.it was all done through my boyfriends grandparents. no idea
who the lawyer was. the boyfreinds name was cory leclair and also know
as cory oddy.i was able to hold her in my arms for a few minutes after
birth.she was put up for adoption not my choice. want her to know that
she has two sisters. you can email me . my heart is empty. she would
be almost 15 or is 15 going on 16. - 26 October 2004 - looking
for my daughter
maria spenceley | @
I am the mother of a beautiful baby girl taken from me by the local
authority baby snatchers here in the U.K. I have fought the British
'secret' family courts for 2years. They have just obtained a Freeing
For Adoption Order (ADOPTION WITHOUT CONSENT ) in May 2004. There is
only one stage left- an Adoption Order. The lies, corruption and professional
abuse knows no limits. I am joining forces with pressure groups here
in the U.K. to stop these evil baby-traders. I would welcome any support
from my global sisters in this universal fight for our most precious
gifts- our children. - 10 October 2004 - U.K.
kyleigh mccord | @
hi i have just found out that my mum had my older brother adopted i
understand why she did it and came on this site to get a idea of how
she is feeling. my mum got her 1st letter from him two weeks ago and
now she is meeting him in a couple of days. - 10 October 2004
Desiree Carranza | @
Hello,my name is Desiree.C..I have been searching for something like
this for so long,thank God.I have been in the process of fighting for
my children going on two years.My children were taken from me due to
domestic violence between my husband and I.I have sense then changed
my whole life around and has done all that was asked of me to do in
order to get my children back,but it seems like the social workers,D.A.&Judge
had their minds made up from day one.They have treated me like a hungry
rabbit and danggled a carrot infront of me.The adopted parents had no
problem with me until they knew I meant buisness and how determined
Iam to get my children back.The system has told lies about me to my
childrens advocates.I so identify with the people who have lost there
children to death but like others in my situation its worse for us knowing
our children are out there somewere.I can not imagine going on with
out my babies 'it hurts so much' There are days I can not bare seing
a child on the street without breaking down.For this reason I refuse
to go down without a FIGHT!! If any one has advise or shares the sorrow
I am going through please contact me at email@example.com .As for my advise
to you mothers 'Stand Tall & Refuse to Fall! - 07 October 2004
Kim Stoltenberg | @
I too am a birth mother. I was 18 when my son was born. I never knew
the father, as I was raped. I could tell no one of this, and tried to
put it behind me, by then I found myself pregnant. This was 1977. The
day I got the call from CSI,is one I had prayed for. My son and I so
far have a decent relationship, he has set bounderies for himself. I
want to better understand how an adopted child feels, so that we can
help each other. His adoptive parents divorced when he was 5 or 6 years.
There was sexual abuse by the adoptive father.I have anger towards the
system, for pushing adoption, and who they selected for parents. One
thing that turns out well, is that he looks like myself. We are overwhelmed,
by the similarities, I know that God must of had a hand in this. I wrote
to his adoptive mother once, and received a letter back. That has been
it for me, the ending of her letter hurt so. She stated that having
two mothers was a bit much. I wondered where I fit in. I have so many
emotions. I pray for understanding, but want so much to be his mother,
and to be called 'mom'. It may be helpful for me to read of other adults,
who were adopted as infants, how they reguard, and protect their own
feelings on the subject of adoption. David is now 27, married,no children,had
problems throughout life with drugs, running away from home, and supported
himself,at 15 years of age, quit school, got his GED, is self employeed,
and doing well. I'm very proud him, and who he has become. He doesn't
have a relationship with the family that adopted him, but yet seems
to be protective of the 'mother' the only mother he ever knew. He sometimes,
strikes at me, with words of anger.I really feel that he doesn't look
at me as his natural mother, I'm a stranger to him, I realize this.
I just want so much more. Will this ever feel normal? One step at a
time. Anyone with a comment? Words of encouragement? This much I do
know, and no one can erase the fact, that I am his mother, and he my
son. - 04 October 2004 - Nebraska
I am searching for my birth mother and 2 siblings. I was born April
16, 1960 at the Sudbury Memorial Hospital in Sudbury, Ontario Canada.
Birth father, whom she was dating, as well as the community and family
members were unaware of the pregnancy. Birth mother was previously married,
husband had died in an accident - they had 2 children (ages 2 and 3
when I was born) and were being looked after by family members. Birth
name given to me by mother at the hospital was Mary and the last name
Williamson appears on my adoption papers. Birth mother was also adopted
and when she was a young teenager her adoptive mother passed away. It's
really a strange thing to know you have birth parents and siblings (family
I like to think) out there somewhere, yet have no idea who or where
they are, let alone when you don't even know if they are aware that
you exist! It seems more difficult to find any information since I now
live in New Mexico.
If you have any information - please reply to this post, it would be
greatly appreciated. - 30 September 2004 - Sudbury, Ontario
I just wanted to say that I have read alot of the stories on this web
site and I am sorry for the pain you all are feeling. I totaly understand
why you feel the way you do. But I gave my baby up for adoption threw
an open adoption and although it is painful to not be able to hold my
baby whenever i want it is also comforting to know that my baby has
a mother and a father that loves her wich is somthing that I wasnt able
to give her. I have a wonderful relationship with the adoptive parents.
So please know that not all adoption situations are bad for some people
they might just be the best thing that has ever happend to them. once
again I am sorry for your pain and just know that greiving and anger
are common felling when you give your baby up for adoption. I hope one
day you all will find a way to accept your decisions and for those of
you who had no choice I am truly sorry for your loss. - 25 September
2004 - california
Webmistress comments: - Dear Trish, 25% of adopted children
have divorced adoptive parents, as opposed to 16% of children being
raised by their real parents. There is no way to get adopters to sign
a guarantee that they will never divorce, so you haven't guaranteed
your child a mother and a father. Nor is there any way you can guarantee
that the adopters won't close the adoption. As well, many adoptees still
even in open adoptions feel the pain of being "unwanted" by
their natural parents. It is a no-win situation except for the adopters.
maria | @ | url
im a british mum of 5 wonderful children, 2 of which i lost to adoption
in march 2004 and 3 to long term foster care because of the british
care system. i have been and still going through hell, its my baby girls
2nd birthday this year and i have missed them both, and my little boy
has now started school and again ive missed his birthdays too. because
of the injust way that the authorities rule things, my children have
been torn from me, a loving home that may not of provided in the way
of lots of holidays and a typical mum and dad home, but they did not
want for love, warmth, food and the nessecities. i miss my children
big time, and i will never give up until we are reunited, i write letters
and things to my home for them, so that when we are reunited they will
see they were never forgotten. i have since started a support group
designed for families like me, as there was no support offered to me,
if anyone would like details of this please email me... in fact if there
are any mums that have experienced suffering at the hands of the care
system again please contact me.... im sick of people that turn their
backs when they learn that i lost my kids to this archiac system, like
i should be ashamed, for ages i was, then i realised, they should be
the ones that are ashamed, not me. - 18 September 2004 - united
maria masters | @ |
hi im a young(ish) mum from the uk, whose 5 children were stolen from
me, 3 in foster care and my 2 youngest to adoption, i ahve found and
still am finding things hard, but ive found a new strength by starting
a support group for other families involved in the care system. my web
page is dedicated to families going through it and offers a message
board where people can post birthday annoucements, etc and hopefully
someday it can help to reunite families, like me. i'd be grateful if
you could possibly post my link.
thankyou - 18 September 2004 - the south west region of the
It seems a very small box to about write my feelings as a adoptee! It's
a great site & one which has given me yet more of an insight of
my life long battle.That battle,it's name,it's nature,it's depth,i have
been living with for 35 years.It has been very subtle in places,as i
learned to bury very deeply the scaring trauma,my great sense of abandonment,the
wound & fear that has never allowed me to form any lasting relationship
with another.I have cried tonight it what seems a long time,whilst reading
pages on this site.
I have lived with a legacy,which seemed like a curse when i was younger,my
extreme sensitivity,my very acute empathy,any harsh comment,criticism,mickey
taking,would wound deeply,i remember extreme lonliness as a child,although
i had 2 of the most loving,giving,caring parents a adoptive child could
have.They have been a great example,but i could never open to them &
i think i must of began rejecting from the age of 7 onwards,but i still
to this day feel protective towards them in their old age,they gave
much for us kids(i am the youngest of 4 adoptee's).
I have always known of my adoption,it was never hidden.
I made a decision 2 days ago to begin actively looking for my birth
mother,it's been a long time over due!
The thought has been with me for 35 years,but it's been 35 years of
battle to face the pain inside,Know it's name,know it's nature &
fathom it's depth & by f*** it hurts ,i write this through tears,feeling..........
- 14 September 2004 - UK
leighen | @
i was born on march 27 1970- to know more about me go to www.geocities.com/hiphop70ca/adoptionpage.com
i m looking for my birthmom and family i dont know if i was born in
canada or in the states on that day - 10 September 2004 -
Amanda Turner-Edwards | @
Experience, is not required to be a mother or father and being a parent
is the bestest thing in life because you can look after life. Lost,
forgotten mother\father needing only the love from there family, can
u relate? whom ever has my children please give them back, as we didn't
give them away.Having tried moving on with my life, with out choice
still months later i am left deprived of my rights as a parent and lost
in the sane world that you live in. love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxplease
for give me, for leaving. - 08 September 2004 - south wales
I had my first child when i was 19, ran away from violence when i was
20 weeks pregnant and later moved in with this older man due to family
problems. when my oldest was Born:November 6th 2001, my daughter.The
social services caused problems for our family, we had little money
but we had a close family they took both babies. Destroyed our family.i
will the children next, they will both be in there late teens. Having
missed both babies, i left thier dad, reminded me of how much the children
that we both missed so much, which could have taken me to my death bed.
ALWAYS LOVE FOR NIKI,RHYS AND DAVID JENKINS.x. May we be re-united one
day for the love of god xxxxxxxx MUMMY xxxxxxxxxx Miss u all Very Much.
STAY STRONG.XXXXXXX DADDY XXXXXXX - 08 September 2004 - south
Kerri Ann | @
I am looking for my birthparents. I was born in Coburg (Melbourne Australia)on
10-6-1959. Living now in the Netherlands (Europe). The name of my mother
was Jones at the time. - 07 September 2004 - Melbourne (Coburg)
Love your site. Thank you. - 03 September 2004 - Pacific NW
Dennis Murphy | @
This has been the closes to information Ive been able to find. But I
dont know if its the right place. My friend a 19 year old female now
residing back home in Iowa. Was arrested over a year ago in Texas with
her bf and her baby. There were drugs and alcahol in the vehicle. She
spent I think a month in jail. The bf is in prison. She was arrested
for public intoxication only. The baby was put into foster care till
she went through the programs she was told to do. After 4 months she
has finished all programs the court had asked her to. At that point
she was than jailed for child endangerment from the initial arrest.
Yes, they waited till she had finished everything asked of her, and
than brought up more charges after the fact. At that same point she
had found that the foster parents have asked to adopt her baby. After
she was released from jail the 2nd time, her probation officer said
she should move back to Iowa with her family, and the appointed lawyer
will work on the case. Since she has been back in Iowa, they have moved
ahead further on the adoption. And being in Iowa had made it harder
to fight for her daughter. She has no contacts or friends down there.
The state of Iowa has done little to help, except to cause more problems
with not providing correct procedures for placement with her parents.
She is a very good person, she made a mistake in her life. But she doenst
desever to lose the one thing she loves the most in this world. She
has sent things to her daughter to the Foster family, but hasnt even
recieved a reply from them on whether they got it. This baby will never
know her own mother. It seems that the foster family may have ties with
someone is the local government in texas. Is there anyone she can contact
to help her? What can she do with no funds or help? - 01 September
2004 - Iowa/Texas conflict
britta | @
i HAD to give my son away straight after birth on 29.12.1985.my mum
made me,she said at 15 i was to young to decide myself.i sufferd,till
29.07.2004.i made contact with him through a TV show.we met a week ago,it
was great,at last i was able to hold my son...if only for a second i
thought all these years.he turned out a great lad and we keep in touch
frpm now on.all this happend in germany by the way!please mums....NEVER
give up hope,EVER!!!one day YOU will find your babies,one day YOUR suffering
will come to an end as well as mine did. - 28 August 2004 -
anieta | @
I have been living in a constant nightmare I lost 3 childern in 5 months.
One I gave birth to and watched him die in my arms. The other two the
state of illinois took them. I battled for about five years in court.
I had issues of domestic abuse and drug abuse I did everything to correct
those issues and recovered well, better than they expected. I did everything
they asked. Just for the judge to tell me its to late. while my childern
were in the state they were abused and later placed on medication.
I live on a day to day basis learning to live with the pain. people
tell me im strong. Im not!!! it becomes so overwhelming i sometimes
want to lay down and just call it quits. This world just seems to be
the hardest thing for me. I find relief sometimes in christ. other times
i just go through the day.I mail them clothes, letters, cards, toys
etc. That helps me to get through. I hear my children say mom i want
to come home to you and mom i will always love you.
the pain gets worse but i can't let them know i hurt because i dont
want them to hurt. they think im going to sign papers when i appear
in court oct,2004 they are crazy I wont. I became so stressed that I
had to move to another state hoping to find some kind of peace in my
life. I didnt know that they could predict the future. my present is
a clean and safe loving one why cant my future be the same. they say
adoption is big money market for the states.what about the childern
who love and have never been abused by there parents, what about the
parents that have worked hard and successfully changed their entire
life. i guess change doesnt matter. oh well as they say life goes on.
- 23 August 2004 - Ga.
Courtney Rainey | @
I am an outraged adoptee from Edna Gladney in Fort Worth, TX. (5/26/79)
I just recently inquired about my non id info and things of that nature
with the agency...they gave me what they had at a price $50 and told
me I can register with them for $15 more dollars (of course I was assured
that my mother had never made any attempt what so ever to contact me
and probably never would...they didn't urge mothers to look back is
what I was told) and since she's not looking for me if I wanted them
to preform a search for me that would be another $350 please. So I began
some investigating as to why I wasn't getting the answers to the questions
that I thought I deserved. I asked my a parents and of course they were
under the impression that when I became of age (18) that the agency
would jusst locate my mother, set up a meeting and that would be that.
They had no idea that even though the paid THOUSANDS to get me that
they would have to pay more for information that is sitting right in
front of these people at the agency????WHO KNEW??? Since then I have
been getting active. I am still searching for my original family....but
I also want to help make it so no one else has to go through this...
It's time to make a stand and fight for our rights as American citizens!!!
Give me my OBC and all of my medical records and yes I have the right
to know my family (who do I look and act like are just the tip of the
ice burg) - 22 August 2004 - BATON ROUGE, LA
I am your birthmother. I love you very much and I hope that you will
contact me someday when you feel ready, even if that's twenty years
from now; whatever. I will always love you, and I'm not going anywhere.
(my website has a photo album; a good option if you don't want to contact
me at this point but want to see pictures of me & your brother).
- 15 August 2004
Sarah Lee | @
What interesting graphics you have on your site. I am curious--do the
bar dripping blood and the flames symbolize how much you hate adoptive
parents? Or, do they symbolize
what you want to do to adoptive parents--stab them or burn them to death?
- 06 August 2004 - Flint MI
Webmistress comments: - interesting questions. The blood
symbolizes the unending damage that adoption does to adoptees and natural
parents separated by adoption. the fire symbolizes our anger at having
our babies TAKEN FOR ADOPTION. They were NOT "unwanted." Adoption
is NOT about unwanted babies. It is about unwanted mothers.
As for people who wantonly demand babies where they know the mothers
wanted to keep their babies, who pay money to agencies and lawyers to
coerce women to surrender or who participate directly in coercion by
hunting down and courting a pregnant woman, they probably deserve to
burn in Hell.
kellyobrien | @
I was adopted in NY state in MAy 1968, my birth certificate says i was
born 11-22-67 my adoptive mom wont tell me anything about my birth mom
..only I was in a Catholic charities orphanage until she adopted me.
if anyone out there can give me advice on finding my birth mom i would
so appreciate it - 01 August 2004 - florida
theresa m. (jones) collet | @
I was 14 when I gave birth to a baby boy. It was 4/09/71, good Friday
at 12:20 in the afternoon. My stepmother wouldn't let me keep him, because
my stepbrother raped me. I have never forgotten Charles L. Jones that
was his birth name. He was born in Atlantic City Hospital in Atlantic
City, New Jersey. I stayed at the Florence Crittenton Home. In 11/72
I got married I tried to get him back then, but I was told to let him
stay with his new family. - 29 July 2004 - New Jersey, United
Shaye | @
I feel compelled to respond to your webpage. The viewpoints of your
subscribers beg many questions. I feel deeply for the stories of the
women here. A few years ago I aborted my child for circumstances that
are many and I will not go into. I suffer greatly now with my choice
which I too feel coerced into.
Even though people say that there are alternatives to putting a child
up for adoption/or abortion, these alternatives are usually not widely
spread, underfunded and sometimes quite temporary. (with Republicans
in the White House I don't see that changing). IF adoption is made completely
illegal don't you surmise abortion rates to soar?
If any of you were unable to have a child, would you adopt? - 20
July 2004 - Kansas
Webmistress comments: - please see http://www.exiledmothers.com/adoption_facts/abortion.html
for our response to the question of abortion.
I don't think that anyone who belongs to this collective would adopt
a child. If a child has no parents or extended family and is thus truly
in need of a home, permanent legal guardianship provides parental rights
and meanwhile does not falsify birth records nor give the child a new
fake identity sealing the original one away, as adoption does.
Lisa Quan | @
Here is the last part. The adoptive family gave me hate mail, my own
brother won't speak to me and people stare at times, but they have no
idea what it's like. A child deserves to be with their REAL mom. There
is more to life than money, God will provide. No one will sacrifice
themselves as much as a real parent would. The adoptive mother was complaining
the 5th day she had her, about sleepless nights and she went working
out as well. I had 6 and a half months without contionious sleep at
night, and I had to get up each time, with no one helping me, she had
her husband to take turns. I love my daughter and am extremely protective
of her. I can't even leave her in the church nursery let alone a day
care. And I don't either. Only you can teach your kids, not some retarded
day care worker. I am living with my parents though, have a part time
job and on welfare but I wouldn't trade it for anything. I didn't want
to live a lie the rest of my life. I am glad I bumped into this website
before time ran out. And I am glad for my daughter too. There is no
love like it in the world. - 11 July 2004 - USA
Lisa Quan | @
Where do I begin? I wrote you guys awhile back. I sadly gave up my daughter
to adoption. I believed all the lies the adoption industry fed me, but
I sadly took. After I actually did it, I was in utter hell. So I researched
online and realized I was not the only one and it only gets worse with
time. So 5 days before I couldn't change my mind anymore in CA, I did,
I got my daughter back! Sadly she was in very bad physical condition,
on the verge of pneumonia, and was being neglected by the adoptive family
who already had 3 biological sons. It took me a month to nurse her back
to health. I love her so much and I can't believe I gave her up for
adoption. She is 7 months old and a healthy 20 pounds. Did I mention,
she is so beautiful, smart and full of personality? There isn't a day
though that I don't think that I actually gave her up. I hate myself
for it. I don't know what she will think, but I will tell her when she
asks about her father. Cont. - 11 July 2004 - USA
Mina | @ | url
I'm a female adoptee born in Atlantic City, NJ in April 1956. I've been
searching for 32 years and have gotten hardly anywhere. My mother was
a resident in the Florence Crittenton home (atlantic city, nj) when
she was 17 and I beleive she was forced to give me up. She had 4 siblings,
one of which had spina bifida at the time of my birth. I'll keep searching,
hoping that there also is someone out there searching for me as well.
Mina - firstname.lastname@example.org - 09 July
2004 - Dallas, Tx
Yvonne Przybyla-Rodenberger | @
We are all but victims of our surrounding conditions, which were beyond
our control at the time our children were taken from us. I was mentally,
physically, and emotionally abused my my mother and her dysfunctional
family, as well as, by my own husband. I could not endure nor embody
anymore abuse. So, I turned to alcohol and substance abuse, which got
me no where but in and out of jail. We are but only living beings, who
sacraficed ourselves and our children, in the most selfless act of relinquishing
our parental rights. I to, feel grave emotional damage inside of my
soul every moment of these days long.
My first thought when I wake, is of my beloved children Brendan John
(15), Nicholas James (12), Brandy Nichole (11), and Corey Allan Rodenberger
(8), They are the last thought in my mind before I sleep.
I Love and Miss each one of you, from the depths of my undying memories
and deep with in my inner being. I long for the day that we are together.
Pleasant/Unpleasant which ever it maybe, we will work through this together.
I know now where you live, and only a few more years for you to become
of age. I am getting my life in order as it should have been before.
What has not killed us, will make us stronger human beings for what
we have endured. I express my deepest an honest apology to each one
of you, for bestowing these troubles upon you so young. May time take
time, and let time heal our wounds.
~MOM~ - 08 July 2004 - May Birthmothers Find Relief From the
Misery/Pain We Feel
Tim Gordon | @
Florida Family Courts are the worst enemy of the family. - 29 June
maria | @
i'm a nmum who lost 2 children to adoption in march 2004 and currently
fighting to have my older 3 return home from foster care. would love
to hear of other sites and e-pals going through the same thing, especially
mums in the uk, who are having or had problems with the british authorities.
all replies answered, contact me: email@example.com - 27 June 2004
jacqueline mclaughlin | @
Searching for my son born dec 30 1963 in ottawa at grace hospital. Given
up for adoption immediatly.Adopted by Dr. in Canadian Air Force. - 24
I am so sad. My son's golden birthday is tomorrow. He is 17 now. My
daughter is 14. I need help...I am so tired.. I haven't slept good in
months.. What is going on? I can't stop thinking about them... More
than ever! - 17 June 2004 - SouthWest
tabitha stewart | @
I am a 31 yr. old mother of 4 with 3 in the system.As i read these stories
i feel only compassion and sympathy for everyone.I too know this pain
and live day by day with anger,hope,and love for my absent heart--which
is my other 3 children.I worry about them wondering if there ok and
love them with all heart and soul! The one thing that keeps me going
is my 8 yr. old daughter i have at home!My story is 10 yrs. worth of
fighting the system with no help.I never won but i still fight.Maybe
not through courts but in my heart now! - 11 June 2004 - ripley,tn.
Helen | @
Connecticut is notorious for taking children from parents that didn't
do anything to hurt their children.
I am one of those parents that the state of Connecticut has punished
for what my ex husband did. I was the one that put him in jail, not
the state. I was told that if I divorced him that I would be given back
my children. It never happened. Both my girls were adopted out. My oldest
daughter is now back in my life after 16 years. As for my youngest daughter,
I found out 3 years ago that she passed away. I hate her adopted family
with a passion, because I was never notified. I never got to say goodbye!
I never got to hold her one last time and tell her that I never stopped
I am now in the process of contacting the medical examiner to find out
if an autopsy was done on my daughter.I am doing this because when I
went to my daughters grave I could not find it because her so called
adopted family was too cheap to have a stone . I found out from the
funeral home where my daughter was buried. I was also told that she
was buried with 3 other children who died one to two years apart from
each other. All including my daughter were cremated. The adopted parents
are now divorced. The adopted mother has disappeared. Which has sent
up a red flag since she went missing shortly after my daughter passed
away. I won't give up on this, I will keep trying to find out what happened
to the day I die.
As for my oldest daughter, I plan on asking her to let me readopt her
. I want her to know that her MOM loves her very much and never wants
to lose her again!
The state of Connecticut took my girls away from me on paper. But in
the eyes of god and in my heart I was and always will be their MOM!!!!
I love you both Carol and Sherry! - 09 June 2004 - Crooked
Charles Hannasch - part #2 | @
In particular, I am interested in experiences relating to
- Dual Representation: where one attorney represents both biological
and adoptive parents. Or, where the attorney representing a biological
parent is paid for by the prospective adoptive parents.
- Documented cases by a state or local public adoption agency which
have been covered in the local news media,
- Documented cases by a state or local public adoption agency which
have not been covered in the local media,
- Documented cases by a state or local private adoption agency which
have been covered in the local news media,
- Documented cases by a state or local private adoption agency which
have not been covered in the local media,
- Documented cases by a state or local public social services agency
- including social workers and/or supervisors - which have been covered
in the media,
- Documented cases by a state or local public social services agency
- including social workers and/or supervisors - which have not been
covered in the media,
- Documented cases by a state or local private social services agency
- including social workers and/or supervisors - which have been covered
in the media,
- Documented cases by a state or local private social service agency
- including social workers and/or supervisors - which have not beencovered
in the media,
- Documented cases by a state or local court which have been covered
in the media, and
- Documented cases by a state or local court which have not been covered
in the media.
Anyone with relevant information may contact me at:
- 06 June 2004 - Orlando, Florida
Charles Hannasch | @
I am an independent investigative journalist working on a project for
a possible investigative book dealing with commercialized professional
adoption services, including the documented actions of adoption attorneys,
maternity homes, adoption home medical personnel, and quality-of-care
(including potential neurological damage to birth mother and/or child
due to the improper administration of drugs) given to the birthmother
and child based on available medical records. - 05 June 2004
Claudia Corrigan Sheeley | @
I say ENOUGH!!!
Enough of the pain, enough of the lies, enough separation, enough, cohersion
subtle or blanent, enough of corruption, open closed records, enough
broken promises,enough baby selling!!!
LETS GO NATIONAL!!!
Let' rewrite American Policy on Infant Adoption. Lets Change the world
and prevent it from happening again and again.
All are welcome to jump on the bandwagon!!!
The more the merrier!!!
This is suppose to be a government for the people by the people....so
lets go!! - 02 June 2004 - NY
Darlyne Lounsbury | @
I was born August 24, 1951 in Toronto East General Hospital. My [natural]
mother went to hospital 'posing' as Mrs. Georgina Lounsbury, wife of
my father, John Lounsbury. After 5 days she handed me over to the Lounsbury's
to raise, never to be heard from again. I am not adopted. There is no
one searching for me as the story goes, my [natural] mother went home
telling her family and six children (again, according to the hospital
records I have) that I was deceased.
Of the 'family friends' I have contacted, all are very aware of the
story, however, none know the identity of my [natural] mother. I believe
my father had an affair and because of his criminal past, he had my
mother go to hospital on the day of my birth posing as his wife, give
birth and hand the baby over to my dad and his wife, never to be seen
I just want the truth. I need a name, and find it odd that no one has
any information with regard to my birth or other pertinent information.
- 27 May 2004 - Milton, Ontario
Claire Eyre | @
29 years now. Constant issues, I try to go forward but little enthusiasm!
- 26 May 2004 - All
in canada | @
My mother gave up her 1st daughter for adoption, giving birth to me
less than a year after. I only found out about my sister because she
called me one day out of the blue. We have a very weird last name and
she was able to contact me. I didn't know about her my mother hid this.
I was and continue to be very angry towards my mother. She says oh it
was the 60's, times were different, you didn't know what was going on.
I know this, that girl, my half sister is messed up. Her adoptive mom
died in her early teens and she has little to do with her father. I
saw one picture of her and its spooky, she looks EXACTLY like my mom.
My mom basically at the time gave her the brush off. I feel guilty because
at the time I was all for that, I was the eldest and damn it was going
to keep it that way. But now I wish I could find her and say how sorry
I am. Try to be her friend. This compounded with the fact my mother
was flip and told me on my 21st birthday that who I thought was my real
father wasn't. And that everyone knew but me. Sheesh woman. It has made
me hate my mother and I don't want my kids to have anything to do with
her.Thinking of adoption? I can't tell you what to do.But I can tell
you this, any children you have in the future will look at you differently
and it will effect your parenting. There are far too many resources
out there for you to make it. And the people who get these kids are
not the deserving families, they are the families from white middle
america with $. They buy their children like fashion accessories. Trust
me anything good your child does will be because of them, anything bad
will be because of their "trashy birth mother." Keep your
kids, see it as a challenge. You can do it! Go to school, build a support
network. signed disappointed by her own mother's behavior
mom to boy 8 with severe disabilties
with no money or support who is rather happy considering - 24 May
2004 - canada
Sarah Simchuck | @
I was victim to this plague! Please visit this link as I was conned
by this sickness! http://www.geocities.com/thebat01mic/
my story PLEASE add this link to your site as I have added you to mine.
I am going to get my children back, the family will pay for their lies.
YOUR SITE RULES!!!! - 24 May 2004 - MINNESOTA UNITED STATES
Shirley Aston | @
I placed my son for adoption in 1971 and unfortunatly the experience
was very traumatic - I'm sure that many other mothers had the same experience,
the drugs at the birth, sheet over the face and active discouragement
in seeing your child.
Counselling was unheard of 'good girls' just kept quiet and signed the
papers. My family just didn't talk about it, my mother has since done
so but my father and brother have never mentioned that time. I have
told my subsequent children and they have been very accepting and supportive.
I have not attempted to find my son and am undecided as to the best
course of action - can you give me your feelings on this matter, both
mothers and children. Perhaps you can help me over come my fears. -
23 May 2004 - Australia
Tricia | @ |
I receive much inspiration from this site! I do, however, wish, as does
June Smith, that you would refrain from using the ugly b-word to describe
moms who have lost children to adoption. It is also important that we
take away all pretenses to adopters being so-called 'parents.' In other
words, do not call adopters 'aparents' or 'adoptive parents,' if possible.
They are, correctly, those who adopt. Those of us who are parents, whether
or not we have lost a child to adoption, have passed along genes to
our children and the moms have given birth. These things provide a special
bond that adopters do not have. It may seem like a small thing to use
completely honest adoption language and to be consistent with such use,
but the language is what shapes people's thinking. One reason that adoption
is so popular in the U.S. and Canada these days is because adopters
fancy themselves parents. I do not give them this power. I do not call
an adopter in one my of children's classes a 'parent.' Only by using
honest language will we take away the power of fake parenting through
adoption. Only then will adoption as we know it end. - 19 May 2004
- Los Angeles
I was taken away from my mother Julia when I was about 2 along with
my sister Charlie and for about three years we were placed in many different
terrible foster homes. My mother was considered unable to care for us.
Honestly, I do not remember if my physical needs were met, but I do
remember how she loved me. And I remember how it felt to be in the foster
homes --nobody cared. There were too many kids coming and going for
the foster parents to pay any attention, and the absence of my mother's
love has haunted me always. - 15 May 2004 - Born in Dallas
TX now living in NYC
Deby | @
I am so saddend in reading these stories! I am an adoptee who searched
and found my birth parents - who are no longer together. My birth mother
wants nothing to do with me and it tears at my heart everyday. I turned
to alcohol for a while to ease the pain, but couldn't even drink the
pain away. I have since gotten back on track with my life and put the
bottle down. Mothers Day is around the corner and my b-day is 5 days
after. May is the hardest month to keep the tears from falling. I give
all of you mothers that were so wrongly abused love and credit. I wish
I could hug you all. My wish is someday my feelings of being tossed
away w/out concern will vanish. Until then, I keep on taking life day
by day. God Bless all of you! - 05 May 2004 - Rhode Island
Marijke van Ekris | @
To all the mothers in exile, especially on Mother's Day:
I am 34 years old and only just waking up to my personal truth.
I am an adoptee. I am searching for my mother.
I know that she is out there in the wilderness, somewhere and I want
to tell her that I love her, I miss her, that I am filled with sorrow
that we were separated; that more than anything, I long for her to hold
me and never let me go again.
I live in state with sealed records, and I howl at the injustice and
stupidity of it all. I know the name that my mother lovingly gave me
at birth. I do not know her given name. So, this mother's day I send
my love out to all exiled mothers, everywhere. Know that your children
love you and long for you. Stand strong and sing out your truth. Know
I am with you. - 05 May 2004 - New York, NY
Victoria | @
I am an adoptee. I understand the pain that both partis go through during
this whole process. This website shed a little more light. Thank you.
- 03 May 2004 - Here
Louise Caliro | @
Does anyone care that I am looking? Does anyone care that I have always
been half of a person? Does anyone care that I was born May 5, 1955
in Boston Massachusetts? - 02 May 2004 - Washington DC
Eileen Creasey Maiden name Boyd | @
I was adopted in Yellowknife, Northwest Territorries, in 1965. I was
born Oct. 3, 1965 to Liz (Elizabeth) Kaglik/Dillon. I was two months
old at the time of the adoption. My adoptive parents are Scottish and
had moved to Yellowknife as my adoptive father had work with Giant Mines.
My [natural] father met my mother in Inuvik as he was stationed there
with the Royal Canadian Navy. He went by the name Larry Cousineau. He
had a french name which he disliked so chose the name Larry. He had
red curly hair, grey eyes, freckles and would have been about 21/22
yrs. old at the time of my birth. The navy upon discovering my mother's
pregnancy sent Larry to Thunder Bay, Ontario, where his family was located.
I currently live in Sudbury, Ontario and would dearly love if anyone
could help me with my search. There are many, many Cousineaus and in
the Thunder Bay area, it is like he never existed. The National Archives
in Canada agreed to forward a letter to him for me, but suddenly changed
their minds and said there was no such person as Larry Cousineau. -
30 April 2004 - Sudbury, Ontario
william h holland jr | @
looking for natural mother. my given name at birth was john von ahnen.
later changed to william holland jr. born 11-18-1956 in columbus ga
at the medical center. found baby bracelet, it says vonahnen on it.
could someone please help me find her? i was told she was about 16 years
old and had to give me up.and the adoption might not have been legal.
i have a birth certificate in al and ga but it has "william h.
holland jr" on it. please help. thank you for your time. - 22
April 2004 - is my moma
I can understand all the pain here. My adoption records showed that
my mother had felt she needed to give me up because it was best to have
two parents. She gave me up even though my father said he wanted to
adopt me himself. She actually went to court to prevent him from adopting
me. He was 30, had a good job and owned his own house.
Instead, I got sent to a family of criminals. My dad is a thief and
I have cousins in jail for rape and murder. I was told throughout my
life that I was a mistake - not wanted by my original family and not
wanted by my adoptive family either. If I was ever naughty (for example,
getting a good report card!) then I was told that it was my 'bad blood'
I was constantly told I was going to be sent to a children's home. Constantly
told that it was obvious I was the adopted one, because I was so ugly.
When I was aged 10, my adoptive father started working for a man who
liked to abuse little girls. I was told that I had to put up with it,
because my family needed the money and I should be grateful that I was
taken in when no-one else wanted me.
Now I have no family. I can't find my original Dad. I don't want my
original mother. I don't speak to any of my adoptive family. I am all
Adoption should be illegal. - 14 April 2004 - Australia
June Smith | @
I have been scrolling through your wonderful web-site but feel i must
make a comment. Why do you refer to yourself as 'birthmothers' or 'first
mothers'. When you use these terms you are supporting adoption.
These terms are used by those of the adoptive community to further distance
us from our own children, indicating that we some how discarded our
own children. These terms also allow adoptive parents to 'own' our children
and children cannot be owned.
We are and will always be, ad infinitum, our children's MOTHERS!
If we had died when our child was born, and our husband remarried, we
would always be referred to as our child's mother.
Our children have a mother and an adoptive mother these are the correct
terms. Do not allow adoption agencies and the pro-adoptive community
to diminish your rightful title.
That is 'mother' - 05 April 2004 - Australia
I gave up my child for adoption in 1997 when I was 17 years old. My
parents discouraged me from keeping my child, they took my car that
they had given to me and kicked me out of the house. My boyfriend didn't
want responsibility and stopped talking to me mostly. The adoption agency
is called The Adoption Alliance and they are in San Antonio Texas. The
adoption agency never informed me that I could do anything on my own
with the help of welfare they only increased my feelings of inadequacy
by telling all the things I couldn't afford. I started working for TWC
later and found out about welfare and told the agency counselor that
I didn't want to do the adoption anymore and they made me feel guilty
about the decision saying that the adopted parents, Jackie and Tod,
had been told that they would adopt my child and had paid my rent because
of it. They said 'you don't want to be on welfare' and made it sound
like a bad thing. I had a baby 3 years ago to make up for the horror
I've gone thru and I decided to do it alone and planned to get myself
pregnant and have a baby. The adopted parents sent me a letter a year
ago and made the comment that 'it has to be wonderful being a parent.
But it must be hard being a single parent, we think about that to...'.
I find that statement insensitive,presumptuous,and predjudice. I decided
that I hurt too much, getting their letters once a year, like opening
a wound and added on the offensiveness of the letters I don't want to
continue contact. I am a webpage designer now and I'd like to make a
site that promotes support to young pregnant woman who are unaware of
the resources available to them. I'd also like to mention my own experiences
and give the name and location of the Adoption Alliance and tell what
rotten service their counselors are biase and deceptive to birthmothers.
Is this all legal? Could I get sued for saying there name and telling
about their unethical behavior?
I feel that they were unjust and I want to help woman feel hope and
get rid of feelings of helplessness when a pregnancy happens.
Sincerely, Rachel - 05 April 2004
Webmistress comments: - Dear Rachel, please check out
www.originsusa.org and http://groups.msn.com/MostLovingOption
. These are groups that you may wish to check out joining. They do a
lot to help mothers keep their babies and help tell the truth about
Suze | @
My mother gave birth to a healthy baby boy at Grace Hospital in Toronto
Ontario Canada - some time between 1962 and 1963 (I believe) before
she gave birth to me. The day her son was born, the nurses (nuns) took
him from her at birth. My mother suffered terribly from that traumatic
experience. Her life was never the same after her first baby was taken
from her, all because she was a young unwed mother. She used to tell
me stories of her son (my brother)....she called him Robert William.
She said that was his father's given names. My mother's maiden name
was Graham. Her given names: Phyllis LYNN. She was born January 5th,
1944. She lived her adult life in pain, due to a broken heart until
June 5th, 1990. She died too young...and I can't live my life as if
hers and his didn't matter. Please, if anyone has any information about
my mother's son. Please contact me! How can I go about finding him otherwise?
Any information is appreciated. - 04 April 2004 - Canada
carol | @
I am searching for my husbands birth parents he was born in Indiana
I think the city is muncie his birthdate is october 17 1969 any information
you have I would appreciate it. thanks - 26 March 2004
Webmistress comments: - Carol: You might try going to
Click on "Search Support Sites" (on the left margin), then
on the page it brings you to, scroll down and click on Indiana. A number
of groups are listed by state that may be able to help. You can also
try going to http://groups.msn.com/searchangels
James L White | @ |
My sisters name is Jennifer J Scheber born in Bakersfield ca on April
16 1974 at Kern Medical. That is what she was told. Jennifer would like
very much to meet her birth parents and for them to meet there grand
children. Please any information call me or E-Mail me. 701-463-7246
- 21 March 2004 - Bakersfield Ca 1973 adopted baby girl
JoAnn B. | @
I never knew that there were so many others that this has happened to.
I was only 15 when my parents forced me to give away my little girl..
the adoptive parents lied to me. I should have known... I'm glad I'm
not the only one, I only hope that one day I will find my daughter -
19 March 2004 - New Jersey
Joss Shawyer | @ | url
I have just read Terri's article called 'Open Adoption - The Wall' on
your site. What a fabulous article she has written about the scam of
so called 'open' adoption. May all the bricks crumble as the wall comes
down. - 13 March 2004 - New Zealand
Deryl | @
Thank you for your site. I have exhausted almost all search method possibilities
and 'think' ALOT about the fact that no one seems to be searching for
me. I do not think it's rocket science to make a phone call to a state
Hearing from the birthmothers here gives me a sense of relief...for
I feel if my life mother is not searching for me, the reasons are far
more in depth than I could ever imagine.
Although it appears no one is searching for me, I will NOT give up.
I have a yearning, almost burning desire to reunite with the woman who
God used as a channel to bring me into this world. I long to hear her
voice again as I heard while she nourished me in her womb.
People tell me it will happen at the 'right' time...???, the right time
was 33 years ago.
I am very appreciative of the home I did have, the love I did receive,
the best medical attention that was given to me, the Bible stories before
bedtime. But I am not appreciative of the attempt to change my identity,
to erase my surname and 'slap' another one in it's place in WRITING
only, my roots can never be changed, only hidden from me. - 13 March
2004 - Texas
Karen WB | @ | url
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Alison Meyer | @
I am helping my children's father search for his bparents. We had three
children together and since both of us are adopted we have nothing at
all to share with the boys about their medical history or what part
of the world they are from. I heard I may be Irish. Dont know. Very
frustrating to be in this position.
He was born: 01/13/66
California. - 12 March 2004 - Washington State
SRC | @
Last May I went to an adoption agency for help. Just like everyone else
I thought I was giving them a better life. It was to be an open adoption.
Pictures, videos, phone calls, visits later. All lies. I am so heartbroken
and suicidal at times, I cannot believe that this in OK. I hate this
country. The couple has moved and changed their phone number. My son
is 6 and my daughter is 3. I miss them so much til it hurts - 09
March 2004 - HOUSTON, TX
Cheryl Jones | @
I am a birth mom looking for her birth son. He was born in Dodge City
KS. 072783, in Dodge City Regional Hospital, at 01:56 AM, Wt 7lbs. 61/2
oz. 21 in. in length. A couple that placed an ad in newspaper wanting
to adopt a baby adopted him. They were from New Jersey. The lawyer that
handled this was Stanley Michelman of New York and Terry Malone of Dodge
City KS. The name on infant card from nursery was Johnson. The phone
number in the ad was 201-583-5926. Which is now a nonworking number.
I have the original ad from the newspaper. The lawyer from New York
is no longer a lawyer. He is into real estate. I found his brother who
is a lawyer and requested he forward info to him. But to no avail no
response. I have contacted the lawyer in Dodge City KS. He told me he
would see what he could find out for me. I have not heard from him either.
Cheryl Louthan Jones - 09 March 2004 - New Jersey ? Kansas?
Kathleen | @
It was my pleasure to read most of the messages on this page. I am an
adoptee and have always looked forward to the day that I might meet
my birthmother and her family.I have been searching for you since I'm
16yrs. old with help from my mother. I was born in Miseracordia hospital
in Manhattan on October 31, 1956 last name McMahon. My mother was said
to be 23yrs old at the time of my birth & single. I admire &
respect her for her unselfishness and am thankful for the wonderful
life I had with great parents. I would like her to know not a day goes
by that I don't think about her. I have three children and would love
to know our medical history. - 08 March 2004
Anna Brown | @
I have just found this site and it is amazing, I lost my son to adoption
under the most severe duress in ireland in 1981 I am very very lucky
that we have since been reunited in nov 2000 in ireland and for that
I thank god, No mother should be forced to part with her own flesh and
blood, its not normal or natural and leaves a permanent scar on a birthmothers
Anna Brown - 08 March 2004 - Ireland
ShaVaughn | @
I am 23 years old and a single mother to my 2 year old daughter. I live
with my mom and step dad. I have no money and no life. I can't buy the
things my daughter needs. My mom helps out with money but I'm taking
care of her all on my own and I don't think I can do it much longer.
If I don't put her up for adoption then what am I suppose to do? I love
her with all my heart but I can't keep doing this on my own. I'm always
stressed out and sometimes I take it out on her. Its not fair to her.
- 07 March 2004 - florida
Webmistress comments: - Dear Sha,
I appeal to you, please do not consider adoption for your daughter--it
will be devastating for her (and for you) and far worse than living
under less than ideal circumstances which can change over time. Have
you looked into County based resources for single mothers near you?
Here are a couple of sites that may give you some ideas and encouragment:
Government resources for
with other single Mothers who want to
share a home
Finding Social Services
you know what benefits you are most likely eligible for )
Child Care Assistance
Insurance for Children
Disability Benefit Information
Housing Loans for low income families
Job Opportunities for Low-Income Individuals
Head Start Program
Victoria Smith | @
I was born in Muncie IN on 6-7-60 and put up for adoption. I wonder
if there was something illegal with my adoption, but can't prove anything.
I never knew how much the birthmothers grieved until I came to this
site. I've only known how much it hurts the adoptee to be lied to all
their life. I am searching for my birthfamily and have been for the
last 22 years. While I know more now, I still don't know enough to find
them. Indiana has a confidential intermediary program, but it costs
over $500 to go through it and I don't have the money right now because
I've been unemployed for over a year now. I hope that one day I can
find my birthfamily and that both sides of the family can begin to heal.
- 06 March 2004 - Indiana
missy | @ | url
I'm looking for my daughter born january ,1986,
in Texas,please email me if you see this.
itsmemissy - 05 March 2004 - texas
KAREN MARIE WILLIAMS | @
I was lied to by a police chiefs wife from garland texas.she brought
some papers to me and told me they where papers to keep the welfare
from taking my son and putting him in a foster home.in 1978 that was
not a good thing. I was in jail for writing bad checks and she scared
me into signing what i thought was temporary care which turned out to
be adoption papers. Now for the good news i found my son on oct 5th
2001. 20 years later. He has a wife and a baby boy. So im also a grandmother.
Im glad i found him but his adopted mother has tried to lie and poisen
his mind every step of the way. He is stuck in the middle and sometimes
i feel things just are not ment to be found. She has money and uses
that to keep him in a straight line. As her baby boy. Im a disabled
ternminally ill mother i have cancer. Who is broke living off ssi. She
knows this and uses it every step of the way. Please kids out there
looking for your mothers we really at least i did love my son with all
my heart but sometimes that just is not enough unless your ready to
let go of the past and bring in the new. We do not want to take there
places we just want to make a little niche for ourselfs to fit in if
wanted. God speed all your searches and may that it all be what you
want or expect. - 03 March 2004 - DALLAS TEXAS
monique (martin) barnfield | @
hello my name is monique barnfield. my sister and i were put up for
adoption in the state of indiana in june of 1986. we are searching for
our biological parents. our mother may go by the name of jacqueline
hamm or jacqueline martin. our father's name is douglass martin. last
time we checked they were residing in the state of indiana ( as of 2004).
please help us find them and our possible siblings. we want so much
to know where we came from. if you have any information please feel
free to e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
this will just be between the two of us. you don't have to include your
name if you'd prefer to be confidential. thank you for your cooperation.
it will be much needed. - 03 March 2004 - Fort Wayne, Indiana
and the county of ALLEN
Donna Monacella | @
I'm an adoptee born 11/20/62 in Montreal and my adoptive mother always
made me feel special and encouraged my search. I was lucky she understood
that there was something missing in my life. When i was three I named
my first doll Cindy Ann(the name my mother gave me at birth) and my
adoptive mother was floored. How could I have retained that info she
wondered. I recently lost my adoptive mother and have been searching
for my birth mother for more than 10 years now. I often lose hope then
I'll here about some wonderful reunion and start in ernest all over
again. To all you birthmothers out there. We are apart of you and without
you we will never be whole. Please find us and never give up. Thank
you for listening - 02 March 2004 - vermont/alaska
Alison Meyer | @
I think that this is a great web site, and I am adopted. I was lucky
enough to be adopted with my twin brother into the same family in 1965.
I found my birth mother but she said she did not want to meet us. I
know it was because of her husband and his attitude toward us. He wanted
nothing to do with us either and actually was angry about us contacting
him. Anyway, I did find a sister who had been given up the year before
my brother and me, and cannot believe how much this woman, my mother,
had to indure in her life. She is only now in her 50s and I pray that
one day she will change her mind and try to meet me, my twin, and our
sister. - 01 March 2004 - Washington State, Pacific Northwest
Manuela | @ | url
Hi,i am looking for my boyfriend his B mom.He olny know some little
things...he was borm 6/14/1965 in Toronto,On.
His B mom gif him the name David Alexander Aim....but he is not sure
if that is her sur name. - 27 February 2004 - Toronto,Canada
Tisha | @
I'm a twice scorned birth-mom. I live with regret and soul-wrenching
grief and seek somewhere to get involved. I'm glad I stumbled upon these
pages and look forward to getting active with reform. - 25 February
2004 - Atlanta, GA
Irene Carnahan | @
I gave up a son in 1970 from a catholic Home for unwed mothers. I now
realize I was coerced and I was weak and I was scared. I was abandoned
by my mother (not physically) for a lot of my life, but at that time
she was invisible. She denied and never spoke of my TROUBLE. Neil was
never named as a grandchild. His birthday was Feb 12. I love him. -
24 February 2004 - New York
Irene Carnahan | @
I gave up a baby in 1970 at a catholic home for unwed mothers. I was
hidden at different brothers' homes before that. I was (but did not
realize at the time) coerced and told what to do for the well being
of the baby. Give him up. I did. No one was there to help me. My mother
denied the entire drama. He was never considered a grandchild. It was
in New York through catholic Charities. Closed adoption. His birthday
was Feb 12. Wish I knew if he were even alive. - 24 February 2004
Tricia | @
I found my mother after wondering where she was for as long as I can
remember. For those of you who are looking for your moms, please continue
the search! This site is such a wonderful inspiration to me.
Please keep in mind that as long as we honor adoptive relationships
by pretending they are family, we are continuing to support adoption.
As long as we support adoption, we will continue to perpetuate the abuse
done by the act of adoption itself. Stop pretending adopters are family
and start honoring natural families, today! And keep reading and contributing
to this site. Recommend it to your friends, true family, and neighbors.
Write letters to your local newspaper. Join anti-adoption groups. Donate
money and time to helping natural families to stay together. Let's stop
adoption NOW! - 24 February 2004 - Van Nuys, CA
TERRI | @
LOOKING FOR BIRTH MOTHER.I WAS BORN ON JUNE 24,1964 IN HAMILTON,OHIO
OR CIN. OHIO I AM A FEMALE. - 23 February 2004 - OHIO
Webmistress comments: - Terri: You might try going to
Click on "Search Support Sites" (on the left margin), then
on the page it brings you to, scroll down and click on Ohio. A number
of groups are listed by state that may be able to help. You can also
try going to http://groups.msn.com/searchangels
Sandy Musser | @ | url
Just wanted to congratulate you on this wonderful website. Being an
'old' birthmother and old activist, it's great to see the work going
forward. Continued best wishes. - 19 February 2004 - Cape
Jonathan | @
HI, ,my name is Jon and I am 19 yrs. old. I am looking for my mother.
I was taken from her when I was four and haven't heard or seen her since.
Can anyone give me any information on how to go about finding her? Everyone
wants money, money that I don't have. If you can help me will you please
email me. This is a friends email but she will give it to me. Thank
you - 18 February 2004 - Missouri
Sarah Bourne | @
Do you have any idea where I can get more inforamtion about the Florence
Crittenden home in Cleveland. My birthmother was there in 69/70. We
have been successfully reunited and share an incredible relationship
that has existed fo 33 years, despite not being together for the first
31. I am EAGER to get all the information that I can about the home
and the brave women who were there - 16 February 2004 - Cleveland
i love this page. keep it up - 16 February 2004 - lagos
Charlotte Henderson | @
I gave my son up for adoption in 1997. I was also coerced and lied to.
Lawyers are not trust worthy, they are in it for the money. In my case
the lady that adopted my child saw that I was young and nieve and took
advantage of me. People that want your child will tell you anything
you want to hear to get your child. I was promised visitation and told
all the things I wanted to here. I did what I thought at the time was
the best for my child. I did not get any counseling about adoption and
the after effects, noone wants to tell you how bad you are going to
miss your child. Young mothers that are thinking about adoption PLEASE
get some counseling from someone other than who is trying to get your
baby. I recently got saved and have put my problem in the Lords hands.
If you are young, single or may not be financially stable to keep your
child, ask God for help, he can work miracles so that YOU can keep your
child. Keep this scripter in mind 'I can do all things through Christ
which strenghtens me.' Best of luck to the ones searching and the ones
trying to make that big descission about adoption. There is no such
thing as open adoption, once you sign those papers, most of the time
thats it. No turning back! If you would like to here more about my adoption
experience or want some advice contact me at email@example.com - 09 February 2004
- Tuscaloosa, AL
Marilyn | @
FEBRUARY 09, 1971 my daughter in law was given up for adoption. Her
birth mother was at HOMESTEAD in Fort Worth Texas. She is desperately
needing to find her mother. If anyone has any helpful info, please contact
Marilyn - 07 February 2004 - Texas
Carol McCann | @ | url
I was 15 years old at the time of the babies birth I lived in a drinking,
angry home my parents would not sign for me to keep the baby so on the
4th day after the birth I thought it was best for the baby so I signed
the dreaded papers my heart has acked ever since I named him Kevin Lewis
(Wanlin) (my maiden name) he was born January 16 ,1964 at 11:43am at
the Misercordia hospital Edmonton Alberta The doctors name was Fong
she was a female. I have discovered there is mental illness in my family
on my side I have 3 more children and one has a serious mental illness.I
worry that he may also be affect or his children and may need to know
this information .Should you ever read this please know I have always
loved you and prayed that you had a good home with love Mom - 04
February 2004 - Agassiz B.C. Canada.
Elizabeth Case | @
I'd like to know if there has been any international outreach on this
I adopted a boy from Bulgaria in 2000. For various reasons, I believe
our son was 'purchased' from his birth parents by the orphanage director.
I was not made aware of this until a year after he was living with us.
If it happened in the United States, you know it is happening today
to keep the coffers of the agencies full. The international adoption
industry is all about sales and finding PAPs with deep pockets.
I wish we could find out more about these un-named birth families.
Thank you for having this site. It should be a must-read before anybody
thinks of adopting. - 04 February 2004 - New York State
Linda | @
11 months after I was born, my mother gave me up for adoption to her
aunt. When the adoption went through, my name was completely changed.
For 11 months I assume I was called one name day in and day out, and
then when my adopted mother took over I was then called something else.
I'm curious to see what kind of studies have been done with regards
to the effects this has one infants. I've always felt (even before I
was aware of this) that my name was 'foreign' to me and disliked my
This is only one of the many effects I've experienced in being an adopted
child. Your website is right on target.
Thank you. - 03 February 2004 - Bay Area, California